Homesick, down and over it

Yeap, the title somehow manages to sum up my post. But I'll write anyhow, with very boring details just for you ;p..

Homesick
Well, as everyone knows, my mom was here for two weeks, mostly for Princess's birthday and spending quality time with mom's precious grandchildren. So, all good things must come to an end, and my mom had to go home. And as usual, minah emo gets very sad and feels very homesick. (I was told by CikJu and most people here that it's very normal to be very sad when loved ones come for a visit and after a short while, they leave. And I also know that a few Aunties who have lived here for 25-30 years told me that when they were here for the first few YEARS, they were quite homesick too). So, I guess it's normal la kot. So, when I'm homesick and feel like going home, I get extra sensitive with other people's reaction towards me. Imagine Miss Already Sensitive being Extra Sensitive...perghh.............. and some people gave some rather impolite words to me, so I get all sad and everything......... :(

Down
It doesn't take me a lot to be sad. Just a few rude words, or attitude by someone (maybe he/she didn't mean it) but that is just enough to make me feel sad. Or maybe it's just an excuse for me to finally cry because 'I want my mommy'...sob..sob... I wasn't really myself lately, with the Hafiz deal and everything, so I guess I broke down. For awhile yesterday, I thought I was damaged. I just couldn't take it anymore. I miss my old friends at home. They all know me well, they know the type of words used that would make me feel hurt, basically my friends (tepen, cbn, uitm colleagues, etc) semua dah masak with my ratu air mata attitude. And maybe those who just knew me here don't really know me well yet. I may look happy and smiley all the time, but I also have feelings too and I am still not used to the 'bluntness' of the people here.

Over it
But today is a new day, and I'm over it. I may miss my family, relatives from my mom's side and my beloved friends in Malaysia, but when I'm down, I just look at my kids (esp Princess with her cute grin and two little teeth) and I will feel better. And thank you also to friends who have given lovely comments on my facebook status.. I feel a whole lot better. Yes, yes, I admit, I am very soft-hearted, I cry easily when I feel touched.. be it happy or sad situations. I cry watching Petronas Hari Raya ads, or whatever sad stuffs on tv. I cry. That's just me. And I also cry when people hurt me with their harsh words, even though I somehow think that they unintentionally did so. Call me naive, manja, gembeng, kuat nangis, ratu air mata, lembik, lemah, etc. That's just what I am. And I'm glad at least there's one person in this world who loves me for being me :)

I brought Princess to Gymbaroo today. I like to think that that's the highlight of the day. The place is in Booragoon, which I think is quite far from my house, maybe 20 minutes or so, but Princess enjoyed it soooooooooo much. It is quite similar to Gymboree, but the songs used are rather mellow... soft to the ears, unlike the fun, happening songs of Gymboree. I somehow think that Gymboree suits Hero (boisturous, boyish and happening) while Gymbaroo suits Princess (very soft sounding music, with equipments where you do not need to push other mothers to use, theres plenty of toys and equipment for everyone, the activities are fun for Princess, and she laughs and laughs all the time. Eventhough it's a bit out of the way, as long as Princess is happy, I don't mind bringing her there. And the best part was, she was soo tired after the class, she slept soundly, which is highly unlikely of her... She even laughs and smile during lunch time. That shows how happy and satisfied she is with the Gymbaroo thing :). It made me feel happy too!

Oh, I promised to put pics of Princess's birthday, but since I am a lazy bum, I'll just give you the facebook link and go ahead..watch the pics :) Princess's birthday

Here's some pics of Princess after her fun day at Gymbaroo

Yesterday's pic -muka normal

an attempt to smile

her usual sweet, sweet smile :)

Today's smile, her nose even wrinkled.. my trademark smile when I was young, Hero smiles this way too, glad the both of them inherited my wide grin ;p

She's walking really fast now!

Happy and smiling, even while eating

Ya Allah, apelah yang diorang rasa kelakar kan bila tengok budak kecik gelak beria -ia

cheeky girl

She's 'talking'.. macam ye ye je cakap... hehe

Love you baby girl, thanks for brightening up my day :)

Take care