Better

Alhamdulillah, after the last entry, I feel better. Better in the sense that I can cook today (i know i cooked yesterday, and the day before, but those were all Western food like lamb chop and pastas using Leggo's which doesn't take much effort to make.

"Tuang, peram, marinate, put in the oven, cook pasta, etc.. easy things.."

Unlike malay cooking, which require numerous pots and pans, a lot of time and effort too! But alhamdulillah I did it. After my mom left, I never thought I could cook again. I felt demotivated. After eating scrumptious after scrumptious food, it was hard to convince me to cook again, because I know my feeble attempt with cooking would turn out awful. But today (it's Thursday and my mom balik Saturday, ok?) I decided it was high time to cook rice. Oh, I forgot I cook noodle too, but like I said, to me, 'real' cooking is the malay dishes which I think is hard but tastiest of 'em all (tapi lasagna memang peveret i laaa..;p)..

Yesterday I made jemput - jemput (cekodok aka cucur pisang, panaskan 'minyak' la, dah lama tak masak ni sejak mak datang (i only cooked lasagna, burger, sausages, western stuffs, when my mom was around so my malay cooking skill dah lenyap). Today I made chicken soup, some fried tempura battered chicken and maybe some mutton curry (rasa malas sebenarnya). I dunno. Still don't feel like it la. But I'm glad it taste good (i think la) since Hero ate three bowls of it (i put two carrots in it and it's all finished!!) while Princess eats quite 'alhamdulillah' too. It truly feels good to cook food and your kids enjoy it. Unlike me, they love soupy stuff and so does hubby, so I ended up not eating much of it. Ala, speaking of soup, teringat kat mak's sup ekor.. uwaaaa.. sob..sob.. Guess i'm still homesick la. Ceh, and I thought I feel better.

On a totally unrelated matter, yesterday, I went to the clinic aka medical centre and I was attended to by the same bit*ch who was soooo rude at me the last few times I was there. But this time around, I came prepared. I saw her behind the counter looking at her PC, and before she even looked up at my face, I gave her the biggest, warmest smile I can give... and with the most loveliest voice, I smiled and said "Hi!".... guess what?????????? She smiled back and she was soo nice and was such in a lovely mood. So I guess it is true that 'senyum itu sedekah' because it made a bitc*y person become someone soo warm :).. hooray! And I was in my friendly mode yesterday, talking to other people waiting for their turn too.. hehe. i am not usually like this, but i guess it's time to change. Hafiz said that I must change my attitude because Australians don't like unfriendly people and if you are quiet, they might think you are snobbish. I guess he's right, because usually I thought people don't like me because I'm wearing hijab or they are racist, but maybe it could well be just me looking snobbish and unapproachable.. I talked to an American yesterday (sorry Australians, I still LOVE the American slang the most ;p).

So yeah, I guess I take it back, maybe people aren't racist afterall. Maybe it's just an individual thingy. If I look unfriendly, unapproachable, who wants to be my friend..right?? Okaylah, I got to go, my very mobile princess (who makes cooking a whole lot 'fun' with her hanging on my knees while I cook) is crying (more like screaming) for attention. Ever since she can walk, she is such a handful!!!! But I love both of 'em of course. Who doesn't?

Take care